Education system

Maine 2022 me first time 10th ke exams diye the jisme ki hbse (haryana board of school education) ne mujhe 2 subject me fail kr diya (math, social science) or sirf me akela nhi tha jo fail hua tha meri class me 60% student same subjects me fail hue the to maine socha next time exam de dunga to ctp ke form bhare or dubara exam diya fir unhone sirf 1 subject math me fail kr diya or mere sath ke or bacho ke sath bhi yhi hua fir maine third attempt kiya to usme me 1 minute se rh gya jis se usme meri attendance nhi lgi to me usme bhi rh gya but i don\'t know mujhe 4th chance kaise mila to maine dubara form bhara to meri 4th attempt me 10th clear hui mtlb me bharne ko rechecking ya revaluation ke bhi form bhr skta tha but uska koi faida mujhe nhi lga kyunki jo government sareaam fail kr skti h wo dusri baar me bhi mujhe fail hi krti or me math me itna achha tha ki meri mam ne mere fail hone pr mujhe kaha tha ki beta tu fail nhi ho skta kaise ho gya tu meri family ne bhi us time mujhe mara galiya di but mujhe pta tha meri koshish bekar h but 4th time me meri 10th clear h meri ye 10th 1st attempt me clear ho jaati agr system shi hota but sara education system hi bekar h isliye me pass ni ho paya jiski wjh se mujhe suicide ke bhi thoughts aaye but mujhe meri family dekhni thi to ab me study bikul chhod chuka hu kyunki system pr mujhe ab 1% bhi trust ni h isliye me study chhod ke full time job kr ra hu!